you deserve someone who knows how to make things up to you after hurting you. not someone who is very good with just the word sorry.
Go after her. Fuck, don’t sit there and wait for her to call, go after her because that’s what you should do if you love someone, don’t wait for them to give you a sign cause it might never come, don’t let people happen to you, don’t let me happen to you, or her, she’s not a fucking television show or tornado. There are people I might have loved had they gotten on the airplane or run down the street after me or called me up drunk at four in the morning because they need to tell me right now and because they cannot regret this and I always thought I’d be the only one doing crazy things for people who would never give enough of a fuck to do it back or to act like idiots or be entirely vulnerable and honest and making someone fall in love with you is easy and flying 3000 miles on four days notice because you can’t just sit there and do nothing and breathe into telephones is not everyone’s idea of love but it is the way I can recognize it because that is what I do. Go scream it and be with her in meaningful ways because that is beautiful and that is generous and that is what loving someone is, that is raw and that is unguarded, and that is all that is worth anything, really.
the funeral of three kids who were very dear to many of my friends was held today. kids that were not but a year or two older than i. kids who had their whole lives ahead of them, with great potential to be and do something. and just like that, they’re gone.
it was a mistake. all of it. the driver was drugged up and high and intoxicated, and none of it had to happen. he was the sole survivor, and he directly caused the death of two brothers and one of his closest friends.
while i personally did not know them, i’m shocked. it’s crazy to think that these young, vibrant boys are gone because of one stupid mistake, and it’s insane to see the impact that their deaths had on everyone around me
to be honest, i don’t know how to feel. i grieve alongside everyone else because it’s such a sick twist of fate, but at the same time, i’ve learned how important it is to appreciate
this year alone, there have been way too many kids my age, kids i grew up with, that have passed due to a whole variety of reasons. it’s devastating every time, but it kinda puts everything into perspective
life is short and life is shit sometimes. take the good and the bad and learn from it, because you don’t know what will happen after today. be good and then be better. live a life that you are proud to live, make choices that you can be proud to make, and treat everyone around you with kindness.
care. above all, just care. care about yourself, care about those around you, care about people who don’t really matter. because at the end of the day, you’re going to leave this world with the choices you’ve made, and i sure hope that you’ll be satisfied with them
leave behind a legacy of awesomeness. be a person that’s worthy, and do your best not to hurt anyone else. be someone that deserves to live the life that you’ve been granted, because no one is guaranteed a tomorrow.
i appreciate everyone who has ever been a part of my life, because they have all taught me something, regardless of whether it’s been good or bad. i’m really grateful for today, and that’s not something i say lightly
so here’s to you three kiddos—-i’m so sorry for your families, but i know you’re in a better place <3
Anonymous asked: 2, 4
2. Weaknesses: i think i always try to see the good in people or i give people way too many chances. not sure if that’s exactly a weakness, but i’ve definitely been taken advantage of because of that and it’s landed me in pretty not ideal situations
4. Last time I cried and why: i think it was about a month ago give or take. and it was for people who are no longer relevant